Today was loooooong. Gah I could not focus for the life of me. My mind was moving a million miles an hour, but the time would not go by fast enough! Anywho so I've realized I don't have any pictures since my face got rearranged... it wasn't really but I have this scar on my lip and I'm really embarrassed about it (yet here I am blogging about it) It has a long story behind it and its obviously not good. Point of it is that everytime someone asks me what happen my heart starts pounding and my head starts spinning. I just tell everyone the half truth. Can of Hairspray=1 Kim=0 I tell a half truth because I SUCK at lying. I always get caught within seconds of the words leaving my lips and if I'm lucky enough to get away with it I forget what I said and get caught later. Half truths are good because I can remember them.
Anyways I absolutely hate this scar. It's an awful battle wound that brings back memories whenever I look in the mirror. that sucks hard core. Next its my face and I've never had a problem with my face. I've always liked it enough that I would never want to change anything about it and here it is altered. Next it doesn't feel the same. It was a through and through cut and it actually ended up cutting up my gums and they were worried about my canine tooth. So when I went to to the ER I got 12 stitches. 6 to sew my pucker muscle back together and 6 to put the edges of my skin back together. Yay... So anyways they were super worried I wouldn't be able to pucker and for a long time I couldn't (which sucks when one is drinking, slurping, eating just about anything not solid, and brushing your teeth) I finally was able to start doing that about 2 and a half weeks later which I was uber happy about. It hurt like a beast but I really don't want to kissing to be awkward so I definitely worked that muscle quite a bit to get it back in shape. Now theres just a lump of scar tissue which sucks and the nerves aren't all healed so if I eat with a spoon it'll hurt and kissing makes it go numb like how when your foot goes to sleep which for me isn't a great feeling. In fact it kinda hurts. I haven't worked up the courage to tell a boy I've been dating that I really really really don't like kissing because of this sensation. I know I should just man up and do it, but I'm so afraid it will hurt his feelings.
But the point of this post was I am embarrassed about this so so much. So all you jerks out there stop pointing it out and keep pushing for details about it after I give you my lame excuse. Also I'm going to start embracing that this is my face. I love my face (not as much as before but ill get there and I like it well enough for now)
Ok this is totally unrelated, but once I have my heart set on something I get really excited about it. I totally want to go to Thailand the summer before I start grad school and work with elephants! I think this is the most exciting thing ever! Just saying so you all know :)
xoxo <3 -K
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